System Unrepairable

4.11.12

I realized today that I’m a robot.

I’m given set goals, and tasks that need to be accomplished. I organize the list into different categories. Then break down those groups into subcategories until they become basic chores that can be easily accomplished. Mechanically, I slowly work through the list until completion.

Once list A has been finished, I list another set of goals. Again and again I work through the accomplishments I wish to make. Always striving for the end result that should be contentment. But robots are made of an intricate structure.
They’re not flawless and they often have glitches. These glitches are frustrating and I make a list of ways that they can be resolved. List after list.
However, some glitches are never fixed. Eventually I learn how to operate with those problems. Adjusting my routine so that I may work around them until they become a minimal factor in my routine. It’s easy really.

Crashing, on another hand is a different story. Have you ever seen a computer give out? That’s what a robot will do. It becomes so overwhelmed somehow. The easy step by step organized tasks become too much. The system tries to restore, reboot. 

Nonetheless some things cannot be fixed. I know this, yet I stay on the steady path of looking towards the next step and how to accomplish it. This helps me cope with the impending doom of implosion. I await when it will arrive. When my systems can’t restart, and destruction is past the point of repair. It’ll happen, but it’s not on my list. So it’s easy to continue on. Check, check. Next list. Check, check, check…